Dilemma No More!!!

This is the 1st time that I started blogging, can't believe I'm doing this. However, after all that's happened for the week, I need a let out. I dun wanna bother my frens coz they've got probs of their own.

Recently, I knew this guy & he became my P.T.B.F somehow. I know the gals tt he likes/liked but come on...it's juz 4 fun & I went into it with an open-mind. After some time, I felt there was more to tt coz he was super nice man!!! but I shrugged-off this feeling knowing he has feelings 4 a certain gal.

Then I found out that he gt over the gal, but i was still skeptical abt it. I wanted 2 fall in love with him but I didn't dare to.

So came Thurs, he called my place & we started talking. Unexpectedly, he asked me to be F.T. Totally shocked by wat happened & knowing at the back of my mind tt 1 of my fren likes him, I started to cry. I dun wanna hurt him or my fren, I didn't give him a reply although he hope tt I can make him happy. We left it as tt.

I met him on Sat but he didn't say anything. I was wishing he said something at least I know how he feels but 2 no avail. It's only during the night tt we talked over the phone. I told him nt to wait 4 me, & he obliged. I wanted to hear wat he has 2 say, he didn't say anything. It's only after a very long time tt he finally told me tt after going 2 Union Sq on Fri tt he realised he still wanna flirt ard.

After listening 2 wat he has 2 say, I told him this, "You still wanna have the freedom tt you have being single but you also want some1 2 be there 4 you right?" and he said, " I hate 2 admit it but you r right!"
After tt, I felt lighter & relieved, coz he was true 2 himself & true 2 me too. I was happy. I know he needed me but said he didn't need me so as nt 2 want me 2 wait for him. He's a nice guy but juz too nice tt it hurts!

Of course I'm sad coz he didn't give me a chance, didn't give himself a chance & also didn't give 'us' a chance.
But I also said tt his decision shld be something tt makes him happy & this was it!

I'm happy tt GoD sent me 2 him 2 help him sort out his feelings & in the midst of doing so I learnt something & tt is 'Be sure of wat you really want! When you're really sure, go 4 it coz no matter wat, it's worth it'
I thank GoD 4 him & I wish he'll attain the happiness tt he's looking for soon.

P.T.B.F...I wanna let you know tt no matter wat, I'll always be der 4 you & nt forgetting tt GoD is always der 4 us.